A few old favourites I have stuck in my head :)
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
No Sleep
That pretty much sums up my weekend. It wouldn't be so bad that I went to sleep so late, if I would be able to sleep in. But my body isn't letting me! I still only get up a couple of hours later than I normally would.
I think I need to go to bed early tonight....
I think I need to go to bed early tonight....
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Ginnifer Goodwin
Don't get me wrong....I love her and I think she's talented and very lovely, and none of this has to do with her or her acting ability, but...
It seems like she's sort of been typecast as the "real girl", the one who is supposed to be "average" but you root for her because you identify with her, and she gets the guy in the end. This was her character in Mona Lisa Smile, He's Just Not That Into You and now Something Borrowed (which I haven't seen yet but I admit I probably will). I don't know about everyone else, but I think she's so gorgeous and I don't really think there's much "average" about her (other than the fact that she's very good at playing very sweet characters). I think she could be a bombshell...someone cast her as that!
It seems like she's sort of been typecast as the "real girl", the one who is supposed to be "average" but you root for her because you identify with her, and she gets the guy in the end. This was her character in Mona Lisa Smile, He's Just Not That Into You and now Something Borrowed (which I haven't seen yet but I admit I probably will). I don't know about everyone else, but I think she's so gorgeous and I don't really think there's much "average" about her (other than the fact that she's very good at playing very sweet characters). I think she could be a bombshell...someone cast her as that!
Staying in vs. Going out...
This is a decision I often face, because I'm both very social and also a homebody at the same time. I go either way depending on my mood. It can be annoying when I want to go out but have no plans, or find it necessary to go out when I just want to stay home with some sewing, a DVD and some tea, but the worst is when I misinterpret my moods and choose wrong. This is what happened last night. Some of you may have seen my Facebook posts. Basically I thought it seemed like a nice night for a night in, but when I actually was at home at 11 pm and wide awake, it was somehow the last place I wanted to be, and it made me feel lonely and kinda wired (cabin fever). As a result, I was wide awake until 5 am and now I'm tired. I should have gone dancing!
Lesson kiddies....sometimes it's a good idea to brave the end of February cold and leave the house, or you might regret it.
Lesson kiddies....sometimes it's a good idea to brave the end of February cold and leave the house, or you might regret it.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Oh, Honey
Every once and a while, I read through old writing in order to gain ideas and inspiration from the past. I’ll go through the stacks of journals, poetry and notebooks I have and see what I can scrounge out that I may have already had before. Most of the time I read a lot of stuff that’s very silly, but I sometimes find a gem and work with it.
But that’s not really what this post is about. I did do that, and that’s where this starts, but this is about what I found in my journals between 2004-2008…
Basically, I can’t believe how naïve I was! Especially when I moved here and really started dating (something I hadn’t done much of before I came to Germany). Reading how I felt when I moved here and the things I thought about guys I dated, I just want to shake my head and say “Oh, honey”, a la How I Met Your Mother (video below):
I know hindsight is 20/20 and I know how it turns out, but still. I think if it wasn’t my life and I was just reading a blog or something someone else had posted, I’d feel the same way about it. It was kind of horrible in a way because I can see how I ended up so sad by 2008 (but somehow I hadn’t really learned by then either….) It's also very clear in the friends I chose. I guess in Canada I'd never really dated, and I only had friends I'd either known since school or had college classes with (and therefore very direct shared interests). I hadn't really met anyone in a while who I didn't already have some sort of background with, whether it be having the same interests and goals, or knowing all the same people. But when I came here, I didn't know anyone and I didn't have a lot of dating experience, or experience meeting friends from scratch. I guess I was just very sheltered. I was also very young. I didn't think 21 was so young when I moved here, and 5 years isn't really a long time in the scheme of things, but it's a period of time in which I've learned a lot and looking back I feel like I was a child almost.
On the other hand, I know I’m not that girl anymore (at least, I hope I’m not!) so I must have learned –something- from it all. I've spent a lot of time lately looking back on the past with rose-coloured lenses, but maybe it's better that I'm who I am now. The world isn't such a harsh place anymore :)
But that’s not really what this post is about. I did do that, and that’s where this starts, but this is about what I found in my journals between 2004-2008…
Basically, I can’t believe how naïve I was! Especially when I moved here and really started dating (something I hadn’t done much of before I came to Germany). Reading how I felt when I moved here and the things I thought about guys I dated, I just want to shake my head and say “Oh, honey”, a la How I Met Your Mother (video below):
I know hindsight is 20/20 and I know how it turns out, but still. I think if it wasn’t my life and I was just reading a blog or something someone else had posted, I’d feel the same way about it. It was kind of horrible in a way because I can see how I ended up so sad by 2008 (but somehow I hadn’t really learned by then either….) It's also very clear in the friends I chose. I guess in Canada I'd never really dated, and I only had friends I'd either known since school or had college classes with (and therefore very direct shared interests). I hadn't really met anyone in a while who I didn't already have some sort of background with, whether it be having the same interests and goals, or knowing all the same people. But when I came here, I didn't know anyone and I didn't have a lot of dating experience, or experience meeting friends from scratch. I guess I was just very sheltered. I was also very young. I didn't think 21 was so young when I moved here, and 5 years isn't really a long time in the scheme of things, but it's a period of time in which I've learned a lot and looking back I feel like I was a child almost.
On the other hand, I know I’m not that girl anymore (at least, I hope I’m not!) so I must have learned –something- from it all. I've spent a lot of time lately looking back on the past with rose-coloured lenses, but maybe it's better that I'm who I am now. The world isn't such a harsh place anymore :)
Friday, February 18, 2011
Self-Perception
I really think that a lot of how people think they look is in their heads. Sooo many people complain about how they look, and look totally awesome. Like, not just average...awesome.
I admit, I do it too :)
I feel overall pretty good about myself and pretty damn sexy lately. Not today though. I think it's not so much that I think I look bad as I feel a little off. My tummy doesn't seem to like food lately. It's not a bug, I'm sure of it (I don't feel sick otherwise), so I don't know what's causing my stomach to do flips. I have a sensitive body though, so who knows. Anyway, when I feel physically weird my perception of my looks goes a little downhill too. Doesn't seem to matter that my skin is glowing (in a good way), I kept off the weight I lost over the holidays and I lost almost another inch around my waist (and TWO around my hips!) in the past 2 months...I'll be like "blah, my hair is flat, my skin is a bit red...I look ick." See, all in the mind :)
I admit, I do it too :)
I feel overall pretty good about myself and pretty damn sexy lately. Not today though. I think it's not so much that I think I look bad as I feel a little off. My tummy doesn't seem to like food lately. It's not a bug, I'm sure of it (I don't feel sick otherwise), so I don't know what's causing my stomach to do flips. I have a sensitive body though, so who knows. Anyway, when I feel physically weird my perception of my looks goes a little downhill too. Doesn't seem to matter that my skin is glowing (in a good way), I kept off the weight I lost over the holidays and I lost almost another inch around my waist (and TWO around my hips!) in the past 2 months...I'll be like "blah, my hair is flat, my skin is a bit red...I look ick." See, all in the mind :)
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
40!
I know in the blog world, that's not a lot of page views, but considering that I just post this on Facebook and stuff for friends and family to read, it's nice to know that 40 friends and family took the time to read about my newfound love of country music, or possibly Valentines day.
Thank you! <3
Thank you! <3
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Country
For the love of god, I like country music!
I spent the majority of my life totally panning it, and now I'm rocking out to Caitlin Rose and Lady Antabellum. I think Dolly Parton's version of "I Will Always Love You" is probably one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.
Maybe it was just that weird rejection thing I have...it's so mainstream in Canada so I avoided it, but now that I'm away, I can appreciate it more.
I spent the majority of my life totally panning it, and now I'm rocking out to Caitlin Rose and Lady Antabellum. I think Dolly Parton's version of "I Will Always Love You" is probably one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.
Maybe it was just that weird rejection thing I have...it's so mainstream in Canada so I avoided it, but now that I'm away, I can appreciate it more.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentines
I have a love/hate thing with February 14
There's something about Valentines Day that I just love. I like the idea of a day to celebrate love, and I don't think it has to mean romantic love. I don't really love the commercialism but almost every holiday is commercialized and I still love Halloween and Christmas. In a relationship or not, it's nice to remind yourself that there's love in the world, and hopefully in your own life, whether it be from a relationship, friends, family or just loving your life and being comfortable in your own skin. I know, I'm a sap.
The hate part comes mostly from the commercialization, and the fact that this centers entirely on romance. I guess it just makes me feel like I'm 13 at a school dance...awkward, and no one is really looking my way. And no matter how great I feel about being single, I still feel a little bit like that 13 year old girl again.
That being said, I wont be guilted. I'm blessed with wonderful friends and family! And I'm happier than I ever have been before. So to celebrate I'm making myself venison steak with a side of spinach and pasta alfredo tonight, which sounds like an odd combination but they're all things I love lots.
There's something about Valentines Day that I just love. I like the idea of a day to celebrate love, and I don't think it has to mean romantic love. I don't really love the commercialism but almost every holiday is commercialized and I still love Halloween and Christmas. In a relationship or not, it's nice to remind yourself that there's love in the world, and hopefully in your own life, whether it be from a relationship, friends, family or just loving your life and being comfortable in your own skin. I know, I'm a sap.
The hate part comes mostly from the commercialization, and the fact that this centers entirely on romance. I guess it just makes me feel like I'm 13 at a school dance...awkward, and no one is really looking my way. And no matter how great I feel about being single, I still feel a little bit like that 13 year old girl again.
That being said, I wont be guilted. I'm blessed with wonderful friends and family! And I'm happier than I ever have been before. So to celebrate I'm making myself venison steak with a side of spinach and pasta alfredo tonight, which sounds like an odd combination but they're all things I love lots.
Monday, February 7, 2011
A New Week
It's sunny outside!
In that vein:
Yes, I drew it, and yes, it's terrible. I'd like to see you do a better job with a laptop mouse and minimal drawing skills :-P
have a good week everyone!
In that vein:
Yes, I drew it, and yes, it's terrible. I'd like to see you do a better job with a laptop mouse and minimal drawing skills :-P
have a good week everyone!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Must.....blog
I haven't posted this week, mainly because I've been a bit up and down with things. I think it's the weather; I never feel 100% great emotionally when it's so grey and dreary outside. I'm a sunshine and heat kind of girl and rainy February and me just don't get along. That, and the fact that Tuesday was kind of a write-off....I spent half my day at an eye consultation that went nowhere, and another big chunk waiting for the Minol guy to read my gas meters and over 2 hours on the phone to Telekom trying to get more info about my phone bill. As I'm not Mademoiselle Patience, this did not put me in the best spirits. Also in that same vein, being somewhat of a workaholic I prefer being busy, and last week I just wasn't "busy" enough. I tend to get that after big assignments, holidays or exams. You have this big buildup and have no time to think and then.....*crickets* nothing. Or in this case (most cases), some stuff, but nothing compared to the week before of essay writing madness.
Anyway since I'm trying to somewhat limit my emo-ness to stuff that actually matters, I didn't post because I just felt I'd be pointlessly whiny.
But a new week is coming; one that's supposed to be sunnier (yay!) I'm starting some new things (more on that later, and I'll also say that this was part of the "ups" of my last week of ups and downs). I'm also almost done my course work, which means that I just have supplementary reading and reviewing until exams, which is somewhat of a relief.
Anyway since I'm trying to somewhat limit my emo-ness to stuff that actually matters, I didn't post because I just felt I'd be pointlessly whiny.
But a new week is coming; one that's supposed to be sunnier (yay!) I'm starting some new things (more on that later, and I'll also say that this was part of the "ups" of my last week of ups and downs). I'm also almost done my course work, which means that I just have supplementary reading and reviewing until exams, which is somewhat of a relief.
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