One Week

Like the Barenaked Ladies song of the same title, it's been one week since I got in a fight with P, and he is still not speaking to me.

It all degraded into a passive aggressive email battle, starting with me explaining why I was angry, and ending with him calling me selfish. True, I was being a bit selfish, and didn't consider his feelings, and I sent my apologies, but instead of being mature and dealing with it he has totally shut me out. It's not even so much that he's been busy and didn't have time to deal with it. I called and sent a text yesterday (the text because I got no answer or voicemail prompt) to say that I was still feeling bad about what happened and that my offer to make dinner still stands (hey, it's the girl version of sending flowers), and still got nada.

It's hurting me. I couldn't eat or sleep after it happened because my nerves were so shot. Now I'm just tired, and need a distraction. I'll see him tomorrow, but it's a group situation that will allow him to duck out early if he still wants to be silly about this, and I'm not sure how much I can allow this to go on before I snap and end it. I love him, but I can't do this. I can't have someone shut me out for weeks because they got upset at me and feel too busy to deal with it. Where does that leave me then? Who's the selfish one in that case?